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I miss you so bad.

You hurt me so bad.

And left me alone crying so bad.

Life is never fair .
maybe to me only.
today will be the day i shall never forget.
And thanks those who are there for me when i called.
I shall never forget what had happen.
Bad regret.

why why why !
everything turns out like this.
i thought everything would be sweet and simple .
blame me,blame him,blame them ?
i can't take down this breath.
i can't let go the anger in me.
so disappointed in me or him ?
i'm so pathetic.
in a way of in relationship.
Girls are not supposed to be treated this way.
never supposed to.
Guys are jerks,but i can't let go.
Today things make a great great impact in me.

I'm getting a computer on sunday.
which means,i can blog till i wanna stop (:
I'm having slight fever now,and i doesn't feel good at all.
sigh.
i miss one of my brother very much now ):
i wish i can share everything inside me now to him.
how bad i feel now.
how much i wanted cry now ):
but he can't be here now,i know ):
i will be waiting.. ):
i have my girlf's with me all this while.
sorry,i disappointed you guys.
the advice you all gave that i decide not to listen.
now here i'm crying alone but you guys are still here.
thanks.
i hate him for lying.
i wanna forget him forever.
he sucks more then anybody else.
i wanna kill someone now.

I think i'm really dumb.
Few months ago i have this choice of not letting myself get hurt.
Now i could only let myself in and not out.
Promises and so,everything was not meant to be true from you.
Changes you intend to change but failed badly.
Now i'm dying to wake myself up from this terrible nightmare.
So i could forget,forget every single things.
Hiding my phone just not to text you,crying alone just to hide from you.
And reminding myself the hurts you gave.
I must let go.

I miss alot people badly ):
Someone that is use to be so close to me .
Someone that would heard what i want to say.
Someone would stand by me no matter what.
Someone that dotes me the most.
Someone i lost now...
Sigh , I feel so disgusted by my own friends somehow.
maybe is their action or rumours.
Not gonna name out .
Just hope i'm not thinking too much .

i miss you hard.

if time can turn i wish everything is the same as past.

time to let go,everyone said so.

thanks for everything,luv ):

Disappointed in certain people.
not going to name out.
I need a laptop badly everyday, school is killing me almost everyday.
Mum going down school tomorrow and well the reason is cause i'm late
for everyday .
Spending almost everyday with boyf(:
Movie's,shopping,slacking.
Girlf is always beside me too :D
Saturday will be watching movie with boyf and co.
I think i need a makeover,very unhappy with my face.
Need some new tops,bottom,make up and everything :D
I hope people around me would change.
Let's wish for peace ! Hengqi should know what i mean* (: